It's funny how prime time television influences us. I usually just shrug off most shows as soap operas. You know which ones I'm talking about (*cough* Grey's Anatomy *cough*). But, as I get older, I'm starting to analyze the stories a little bit more and put them into a real life perspective. Do I believe that hospitals have a bunch of staff that basically just has one big orgy year after year? No. But, the writers of these shows do actually provide some basic life lessons.
Just this morning I overreacted to something so petty. Then, I got in my car and headed to work frustrated by the morning. It was a damn garbage can. I let a garbage can, an inanimate object, one that is so belittled that it holds my garbage, get to me. And then, half way to work, after I was alone in my car and thoughts, I felt terrible. I became selfish and angry at home, threw a little tantrum, and now I was regretting it.
There was a time when life was a lot less stressful. "Those were the days," I thought to myself. Then, I remembered that was back when I was young, naive, and reckless. Prior to even those times, my life sucked; I lived under my parents' roof, and they treated me like the garbage can I mentioned above.
So, now I ask myself: How can I let the little things in life not bother me anymore. I preach to be people about life being about the bigger picture, yet I've fallen into the trap of small things tripping me up. From today forward, I am making a promise to myself, and I will stick to it. The thing is though, I have to lay things out in order to stick to them. So, at the end of six months, I plan to look back to today and feel better about the previous six months than I do about the current previous six months.
This will be umbrella attempt, though, not just about one piece of the pie. I intend to feel better when I wake up each day and when I lay my head down each night. Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. The war with myself will start being won by the better me, and not the me that dreads some days.
I never plan to know what I've got when it's gone. What I've got is what I want, and that's not something I'm willing to lose.
